Fake Pity Is the worst

You know what I cant fucking STAND? When girls give you fake pity. No not pity like they legitametly feel bad for you, i mean FAKE pity, where they are happy and you are not so they have to fake it so you will be happy with them. I dont know I cant explain it but I seriously hate it so much. Its like im single, im not getting anywhere, no one wants me, I cant be with girls younger then me (I laugh in anyones fucking face who says age does not matter, try sitting in jail saying age should not matter cuz Ive done it) NO girls older then me want me, I dont care what anyone says. Love is just this thing some people will never understand or get. Unless of course you are a bad person. Bad people always will win. Nothing bad ever happens to bad people. Its good people who get lied to, or who are nice to others or treat everyone better then they treat themselves who get fucked over. A drug addict will live a happier life then a man who donates to charity. A man who constantly cheats, lies, plays, takes advantage of, will always get the girl no matter what. Love is one sided and nobody wins in it, unless you are an asshole of course. Then you win every fucking minute of your life. I give up trying for anyone, its stupid pointless and will never work out. Ive pretty much given up on ever considering the fact I just might be the center of someones attention. Maybe I should start acting like the other half of the world so I can win for a change. This has been the worst year of my life and it only gets worse and worse. Turning 18 has ruined my life, I hate it. I knew it would. Everyone says "oh its going to be so great" no. fuck you. It was the worst mistake I ever made, living to be 18. I cant wait to get the fuck off this world. Take me anywhere but here.