reading old writing is too fun

well I should be asleep but i cant really sleep, ive got too much on my mind. Plus we have a lame rally thing tomorrow so school is going to be pretty pointless (and loud) >___<  anyways my singing lessons went amazing tonight. like wow, I felt this weird thing in my throat open up and my voice sounded good! I was sooo happy you have no idea. Even my teacher said "you are SO close to having an amazing voice, you just need to have confidence and give it some passion" haha I think my lack in confidence really kills me. Tommy was the first to show me that, he is one person I can say has always thought id make it far.. i love him for that ( = haha 

anyways yeah when I stay up late I decide to read old writing that i wrote in a different state of mind haha check this out

"If you were to open up my head youd see the creatures in your childhood closet never left they just found a new home. If you were to open up my chest you would find not a heart but an i owe you. This pain you give me in my chest is starting to cave in and go away. and i hope this lasts as long as every fake flower i put on your grave. Id never hit a girl and id never hurt you but i cant promise what my words could do. and im done feeling sorry and missing you.  Every word I write about you passes more time until ive nothing left to say. and like my love for you its gone and i wont even remember your name. Move onto the next unlucky guy and steal his soul just like you took mine. me my pen and paper are done with you. Thank god I never have to write another stupid love song you dont deserve"

haha daaamn i was pissed xD anyways. good night<3>