I<3Monsters vs aliens haha ( =

so yesterday I really had nothing to write about so i did not write anything haha, just came over to daniels house and played resident evil 5 (we do that a lot) he left to go to dinner with his cousins and our brother so i stayed home with my mom and watched role models (i love that movie) and yeah that was my night, but today was better, I hung out with Daniel and we played basket ball with our brother and his friends. I played a good game for a white skinny guy with long hair and who sucks at basket ball haha. anyways after us three went to jamba juice. hells yeah it was awesome i finished my smoothie in like 2 seconds. Then I hung out with greg, dylan, chris, chance, his girl friend, daniel, veronica, jessica, and M@sign. That was a lot of fun too. Jessica and veronica left. so did chance and his girl friend. and greg went to jessicas or jonathons house i think and so it was just me chris daniel dylan and m@sign. we had a lot of fun and saw monsters vs aliens. it was sooo awesome!! I called greg to see if he wanted to go but he did not pick up. none the less it was fun. and tommy is not grounded no more! :D yay!!! we need to get crackin on the music and bonding. we have not killed a single spider in like years. but anyways now im back at daniels house about to play some RE5 and own on some african infected people. Ill update again soon ( =


ps I did NOT get to see the preview for the movie 9 ) = im sooo down for that movie! it looks amazing<3

reading old writing is too fun

well I should be asleep but i cant really sleep, ive got too much on my mind. Plus we have a lame rally thing tomorrow so school is going to be pretty pointless (and loud) >___<  anyways my singing lessons went amazing tonight. like wow, I felt this weird thing in my throat open up and my voice sounded good! I was sooo happy you have no idea. Even my teacher said "you are SO close to having an amazing voice, you just need to have confidence and give it some passion" haha I think my lack in confidence really kills me. Tommy was the first to show me that, he is one person I can say has always thought id make it far.. i love him for that ( = haha 

anyways yeah when I stay up late I decide to read old writing that i wrote in a different state of mind haha check this out

"If you were to open up my head youd see the creatures in your childhood closet never left they just found a new home. If you were to open up my chest you would find not a heart but an i owe you. This pain you give me in my chest is starting to cave in and go away. and i hope this lasts as long as every fake flower i put on your grave. Id never hit a girl and id never hurt you but i cant promise what my words could do. and im done feeling sorry and missing you.  Every word I write about you passes more time until ive nothing left to say. and like my love for you its gone and i wont even remember your name. Move onto the next unlucky guy and steal his soul just like you took mine. me my pen and paper are done with you. Thank god I never have to write another stupid love song you dont deserve"

haha daaamn i was pissed xD anyways. good night<3>

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Ive been reccomended to use this, ( = so I decided to get make one and let out all that unwanted feelings I have haha.
anyways I know everyones first thought to this is HE IS GOING TO JUST WRITE A NOVEL ON THIS ABOUT EVERYTHING HE IS GOING THROUGH RIGHT NOW and well I really hate to disappoint you but no, I will not be writing about that on this, there is so much no one even knows and I decided to keep it that way for all of our sake. Maybe one day ill get it off my chest onto here. anyways, today was okay I guess did the same old school routine, listened to sky is nothing make wonderful music. Me and tommy finally started working somewhat on the new song for our band :D im way excited for that. School is almost over and i have a 67% in econ :D i know it sounds really bad but im soo happy, i had like a 59 and i brought it up. I was waaaay happy when I saw the grades posted. Later tonight I have singing lessons, which is awesome because going to them makes my self esteem waaay higher. Even though im not even a good singer it just makes me feel special haha.

Lately ive been noticing how I seem to have the worst luck in my love life. Its like I hear all these amazing stories of people and their love lives and im just like sitting there, alone in class with nothing to say or no friends around. It totally sucks but honestly im starting to see that girls are only trouble. Maybe one day I can find someone who wants a turtle<3 :D